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A Little Backstory:

In January of this year, I experienced what we now know was a focal seizure at my mom’s birthday celebration. My family was adamant I follow up with a neurologist after witnessing this (I was adamant I was fine, because I was only partially aware of what was going on ;)) I saw a neurologist in February, and we discovered that the episodes I had been experiencing very frequently (multiple times a day most days) for over a year were seizures. While awaiting treatment options, further testing, and appointments, in April I had a grand mal seizure (also known as a tonic clonic seizure) while shopping at Trader Joe's with my mom. I woke up in an ambulance, with no recollection of what had happened or where I was. I actually thought I was dreaming when the EMT’s told me I had a seizure. Following this, I received a diagnosis of epilepsy. Currently, we are in the process of determining exactly what is going on, so more testing is being done to understand the specific type and origin of the seizures in order to help us determine the best course of treatment moving forward. I have begun seizure medications, and while I have had no more tonic clonic seizures (Praise God), I am still having focal seizure activity.

*The pictures on instagram/ the blog were captured during an at home video EEG test.

During this time, I’ve been thinking about the song from Maverick City, that says- “the wind came, the storms blew, but my house was built on you.” In my life years ago, the storms did come and the winds did blow, but I found out that my foundation was not on Jesus. My foundation was on my own strength.

This time around, as the rain has come and the winds have blown in the form of seizures, I can see and feel a difference. There’s a difference in the peace I feel. There’s a difference in my response. There’s a difference in my mind. Before, my mind ran completely wild with worry, fear, doubt, and confusion. This time, there are moments of these feelings. Please hear me when I say I have at times still struggled with these, but it is not what is predominant. By His great faithfulness, I now know God to be with me in my darkest nights. I have known Him to be faithful and true. I have known Him to bring me comfort in the most miraculous ways, even though he didn’t have to. I’ve known His kindness. These experiences help me to hold on to faith, and to not be thrown about in the midst of the storm. My foundation is built on Jesus now through and through, and perhaps that’s greater than any of the hard things I’ve experienced. :)

Thank you for all your prayers,

Anna